Stress, Stress, Stress

Arghhhhhh 3 more days and my exams start. Granted its only two papers but still I'm already starting to sweat bullets. Its been 4 years since I actually sat for an exam and its not helping that what I've been studying seems to go through my brain like a sieve. I wonder what made me take up studying again, and while I'm working too damnit. Hopefully the last three months of studying will pull through and I pass. If not, well more money will be spent again and I'll have to redo the papers next years. Yeah and then I'll be twice as stress since I'll be doing four papers instead of 2 if I fail and repeat next year. Grrrr oh well back to studying.

Of procrastinators, laziness and downright irresponsibility

No this is no post about the current political climate of out country though it kind of sums up the prevailing attitude (among others) of our "beloved" administrators. This is more about me. I see this becoming a trend. One post than another one... 2 months down the line, which pretty much sums up my attitude in general recently. Yes I haven't changed much since my last post and all the promises I made to myself were never fulfilled. I wonder if I can ever get out of this rut I've place myself into. With work, study and money problems all rolled into one, coupled with my prevalent attitude, its a wonder I'm not out on the street begging for my keep.

I'm finding it hard to become the upright, responsible and hardworking person my parents have always envisioned me to be. Ironically enough, my parents are one of the most responsible and hardworking people you'd meet and yet moi, their only son, is the bum he is. I really have to stop this as my current attitude its self destructive. It's not that I haven't noticed it before but I really woke up to my current situation when a friend of mine was kind enough to give me a good nagging over my performance. Its one thing to notice things yourself but when other people start noticing it to, well lets just say its high time to make a change.

So yes, I'm making new promises, to do lists etc... and I hope I keep to it... for good this time.