A new phase for me

Yes, its been ages since I've actually posted anything and all those promises I made about changing, well lets just say they never really came through. Six months since my last post, which was not much of a post anyway, I've once again undergone some major changes in my life. I've decided to quit being a lazy ass and have actually gone and got a proper 9-5 job. Yes this one and a half year experiment into the world of freelancing is finally over and what have I learnt from it?

Well quite a lot actually and the sad realisation that I might not be ready or maybe not even cut out for doing things on my own. I had so many plans; grow my freelance writing biz, maybe start a site hopefully make some money, blog, actually finish some sort of higher education course etc. and did  actually do them. Well sort of but all of them in a half hearted matter. To make matters even worse due to the complacency I had during this entire period of 'working on my own' I found that I was becoming less and less financially prudent. I haven't exactly been very good with the money which has resulted in me being well less financially well off than I originally was. Yes I was earning a good deal but at the same time, I was wasting money on stuff just to kill my boredom. On top of that I wasn't even doing most of my jobs properly which saw me slowly cutting of one job by one until I was only doing bare minimal stuff.

So I finally decided some time last week that enough was enough. I was damaging my life as it is. Before I could ruin any rep I built up in the industry (which I suspected I was close to doing) I decided that a total change was needed. I found myself a new job with a set of challenges that I was looking forward to facing. I believe that if you don't use your brain, its bound to rot and that was exactly what was happening to me. With this new job, hopefully I will succeed in stemming this rot that has already permeated a good part of my mind.

This post is more of a rant but you'll soon be seeing a more coherent post on what I plan to do with my life and hopefully this blog will be filled again soon.

Injured

Nah its nothing serious. Just a small cut on my hand. Was intending to cook some Indo Mee when it happened. I didn't know that a vase was stored in the same place where the pots and pans were kept so as I was taking the pot out the vase fell and my pinky was cut when it broke IN MY HANDS. The cut was pretty deep and I was bleeding profusely. Thank goodness I kept a first aid kit our I would have bleeded all over the floor and my girlfriend would not have been pleased bleeding and making a mess on the floor.

Since there was no iodine a little help from my vile bottle of Korean rice wine helped clean up the wound, painfully I might add. I finally manage to find a use for that vile bottle of alcohol besides it being an object to scare fellow drinkers. Anyway just to gross you guys out I posted a picture of my cut finger and the bottle of Korean rice wine (that you should never buy unless you like to drink paint thinner).

Exams are over now work can begin

Yes my exams are over. Finally... hopefully I pass one of my papers though I'm sure i screwed up another. I've found this past 4 months that working and studying is really, really, really difficult. Just trying to think of studying and working at the same time gave me massive headaches. Ah... to only focus on a single tasks. Originally I thought, well how hard could it be. Well I found out how hard it was. On top of my work with LYN and my other freelance gigs, I really couldn't cram things more into my brain. The worst part was shifting gears into study mode. It's really hard when one minute you're thinking of what to write for your next article or review and the next you're trying to remember marketing terms and theory. It was a bit easier doing news pieces since those didn't really require much thinking but when it came to reviewing stuff and trying to remember my marketing theory, well lets say sometimes I got certain acronyms mixed. OMG I hope I didn't put in any IT acronyms into my exam.

Anyway things should go back to normal now. I can fully focus on my work over at LYN and even ramp up my reviews (which were honestly being left aside). Will be updating more often as well.

Stress, Stress, Stress

Arghhhhhh 3 more days and my exams start. Granted its only two papers but still I'm already starting to sweat bullets. Its been 4 years since I actually sat for an exam and its not helping that what I've been studying seems to go through my brain like a sieve. I wonder what made me take up studying again, and while I'm working too damnit. Hopefully the last three months of studying will pull through and I pass. If not, well more money will be spent again and I'll have to redo the papers next years. Yeah and then I'll be twice as stress since I'll be doing four papers instead of 2 if I fail and repeat next year. Grrrr oh well back to studying.

Of procrastinators, laziness and downright irresponsibility

No this is no post about the current political climate of out country though it kind of sums up the prevailing attitude (among others) of our "beloved" administrators. This is more about me. I see this becoming a trend. One post than another one... 2 months down the line, which pretty much sums up my attitude in general recently. Yes I haven't changed much since my last post and all the promises I made to myself were never fulfilled. I wonder if I can ever get out of this rut I've place myself into. With work, study and money problems all rolled into one, coupled with my prevalent attitude, its a wonder I'm not out on the street begging for my keep.

I'm finding it hard to become the upright, responsible and hardworking person my parents have always envisioned me to be. Ironically enough, my parents are one of the most responsible and hardworking people you'd meet and yet moi, their only son, is the bum he is. I really have to stop this as my current attitude its self destructive. It's not that I haven't noticed it before but I really woke up to my current situation when a friend of mine was kind enough to give me a good nagging over my performance. Its one thing to notice things yourself but when other people start noticing it to, well lets just say its high time to make a change.

So yes, I'm making new promises, to do lists etc... and I hope I keep to it... for good this time.

I'm finally bloggin.

Yay, I've finally started on the blog bandwagon. After years of reading them, I've decided that it might not be such a bad idea to start one. It funny really when you consider that having been a writer for hmmmm almost 7 years, I'd take to blogging like a fish to water. I don't see it that way though. When most of your time is spent writing for work, sometimes you cease to see writing as a source of enjoyment but a source of pain. Thankfully with my recent (ok la not so recent actually) employment development, I've come to see writing as less of a pain and a chore to being one of enjoyment again. So here's to me on starting a blog. Let's just hope I actually manage to actually post regularly.